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Saturday, January 28, 2006

i'm starting to find more purpose in going to school. at least i start looking forward to class. i have nice classmates :) and yesterday's laughter was simply great - from school time to after school. probably one of the happier days and i don't have that many happy days to start with. and after a whole week of school, it feels like my energy is sucked out. like since when were first 3 months school days tiring?

anyway, i miss wq a lot. sometimes out of a whole week, i hardly see her so let alone talk. so whatever time we have together is precious. and that's why i like asked phy and huihui not to join us but in the end it still didn't really work out i guess. hurrrr. due to unforseen circumstances. haha. but at least it didn't really suck that bad.

and dawn tan i become your bf huh. send you to the bus stop to take 14. haha.

love you like a sister;
6:08 pm

Saturday, January 21, 2006

maybe my class isn't so bad as what i thought. and in my positive opinion, i think class has already started to see better days :) that is a GOOD sign. haha. oh and maybe with the new timetable of odd and even weeks, school becomes less monotonous.

and recently i realised i have been saying out lots of things that i didn't intend to say or have been keeping to myself. haha. wonder why. DLS.

phong. BILLY BOMBERS!

love you like a sister;
4:12 pm

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

you know it's those times where i start questioning my self-worth and i think i'm just wasting space and resources on this earth. honestly i think i would be of more use if i were to decompose and just provide some nutrients for the soil.

love you like a sister;
7:33 pm

Monday, January 16, 2006

today is BEST FRIENDS DAY! yay. haha.

and break was fun because everyone who mattered was around :)

love you like a sister;
9:11 pm

Saturday, January 14, 2006

BITCH

love you like a sister;
2:54 pm

just read da jie's blog and he actually said that he had the most fun in 1t08 and he never enjoyed school so much before. i guess most of the 1t08 1st 3 months peeps last year agree that it was indeed a wonderful class. a splendid memory that seemed not too long ago. but then, it has already been one year. and most of us still always think back to those days :) sigh. those days...

and now everything is moving on so fast and furious. haha. (i think that's what phy said)

love you like a sister;
2:04 pm

Friday, January 13, 2006

school is fine. just fine i guess. i don't know how i would be without louie, luan and paddy though (kind of like the only people i talk to in class). i think i'll rot like chem lect yesterday. so everyday i sit through tutorials and lectures and look forward to breaks and seeing people i miss. awwwww. haha.

and it gets really monotonous.

i just hope that it's just because it's second day of lessons and things will get better :)

oh well, i'm just really bored. i shall reply dawn's letter :) hoho.

PHONG. SUNSHINE

love you like a sister;
5:35 pm

Thursday, January 12, 2006

have you ever heard of someone sending her laptop for repair because she thought it had virus and she couldn't move her mouse only to realise that it was because she locked her keypad unknowingly? ya that's kai. hahaha. quite stupid but funny.

oh yes. for a period of time in school today, it was super boring. suddenly i felt like there's nothing to look forward to in school. maybe it was just my mood. and i have to admit i'm really lucky because i've met all my teachers and they're patient and nice. my class is not very bonded though. kind of divided into cliques. it tends to happen in a class full of girls i guess. and you people should walk by more often :)

ANYWAY, i want to take out my braces! RARRR.

sigh. it has been ten thousand years and i still can't take it out. hmpfh.

PHONG. smile.

love you like a sister;
6:06 pm

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

i woke up today and i can't stop thinking about it. yes it. haha. so secretive. i think i've never felt sad over this type of things in a long while. or more like i've never felt like this in a long while. it's starting to freak myself out. haha. but still i think it's amusing. and sometimes i feel like i lose myself. i become not like myself. that sucks. i've always tell myself not to be bothered by these kind of things and just avoid it until suddenly it just comes to hit me like this. like some strong wave or something and i just get swept away.

okay i think you don't know what the hell i'm talking about. haha. but that is fine cos as long as i understand it's good enough.

and the weather is madness! it ruined the letters from dawn, phy and huihui. so sad :( and i wanted to keep them nicely. thanks to uncle rain. hurrrr.

PHONG again.

love you like a sister;
2:10 pm

Monday, January 09, 2006

i ought to kick myself. hurrrrr.

PHONG.

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10:39 pm

Saturday, January 07, 2006

school seems to be getting better since coming to know my class which is 1t18. i hope that my first impression of this class won't bring me later disappointment. i do miss 1t37 although repeating j1 is kind of refreshing. it's like a third new beginning and a fourth one is soon to come. sheesh.

phong!
somehow my heart beats faster sometimes.

love you like a sister;
2:40 am

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

okay my com restarted on me so i have to type all over again. rarrrr

yesterday was first day of school and it sucked. it was horrid. i think it was just me. at the start of the day, i was still feeling enthusiastic and having high hopes of a good day and as time flies, i found myself getting more and more depressed. the only happy exprerience with a new j1 was meeting my sc junior charlene. at least i felt happy to see her around. but i only met her once the entire day. anyway, the feeling of left out is bleah. i just can't blend in. i tried talking and talking to one ig mate and i ended up feeling like i was talking to myself. kind of. and the rest of the girls were like connecting really well. so i gave up and together with louie and right in front of our IGs, we ditched them when they were playing icebreakers and went to grandstand. they must have thought we were disgusting people but now thinking, who cares? ( as what louie said). the happiest thing yesterday was seeing the t37 people especially dawn and phy and also wq and huihui. and we talked a lot of rubbish. but to make me feel tons better, at least i have louie with me. and at least louie wasn't just a friend. she's my close friend :)

hmm. i remember around this time last year, i would be getting to see my new class 1t08. the class which i cried about on the first day i went home or went to wq's house actually. but never did i realise that 1t08 turned out to be one of the best class experiences i've ever had. the class was close, we were like brothers and sisters. everyone truly cared for each other in this small class of 18 ( and which 18 slower became lesser and lesser). but more importantly for me, finding friends whom i can talk heart to heart with. not just one but quite a few. and seeing them after first 3 months, i would always find that warm familarity in them.

so here i am not in school cos i can't bear to drag myself into feeling urghish. i hope tomorrow will be a better day. a day just like last year where i cry the first time i know my class but love them to nuts afterwards. i wish for a first 3 months class like 1t08. sigh.

and i'm so jealous minhui watched It Started With A Kiss already! haha.

:: phong

love you like a sister;
12:58 pm

Monday, January 02, 2006

i want to watch It All Started With A Kiss!

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6:31 pm

Sunday, January 01, 2006

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU!

2005 was a brilliant flash. well, maybe not all that brilliant but a significant one at least. new friendships forged. new memories created. and i've grown to be more mature and to think for others.

back home at 10 plus just now from huihui's house where i've spent more than 24 hours i can't believe it. haha. anyway, spent my last moments of 2005 and first moments of 2006 at huihui's house with huihui, shou and phy. in 2006, the first person who rolled her eyes at me:huihui ( rolled twice somemore) haha. i shall remember that. our first drink: bacardi breezer for all of us except phy who drank ice peach tea. i'm sure we all know why.so cute.haha. first song we heard: tanya chua's don't-know-what song she performed at countdown. (by the way, the mount faber countdown seemed really sad case, it was quite empty if you noticed other than the first few rows filled up) first person to call and wish me happy 2006: louie. hoho. aren't i honored?

we played Game of Life where shou was super qianbian everyone just felt like slapping her. haha. and we baked this yummy cake which i forgot what it was called. and we watched vcds :) but too bad phy had to go off at 12 plus and shou's parents came to pick her up 3 a.m in the morning. and by then huihui's parents had already locked the main door so we had to open this panel and walk along the pond to the gate like sneaky thieves. we had to do that again when guest-of-honour (haha) wq came at around 6 a.m and her cab driver couldn't figure out huihui's house so me and huihui stood in the middle of the road like idiots and waved our hands when we saw a cab approaching. haha. and not to mention me and huihui pushing the responsibilty of waiting for wq's call to each other because we were falling asleep. oh so in the end actually i was the only one who slept over. hurrrr. okay maybe if you consider wq as one more person then two. and when wq came, she was so energetic so she was like: don't sleep i'm still very awake! so we ended up sleeping about 2 hours and continued watching vcds while wq was sleeping every now and then. so awake eh? haha.

and now, i'm feeling rather empty from all that fun and great companion :(

thanks to everyone who brightened my year 2005. and now that it is 2006. i'm hoping badly that this year would be a great one. and i'll miss t37 :)

PHONG

i wish we could always have that special place in each other's heart. and no matter what happens, you can always fall on me. i don't ever want it to fade away with time. that sucks.

love you like a sister;
11:05 pm